if u didnt see my away message today, it was about the withdrawl i felt today. After so much time with the love this weekend, I missed him incredibly when i woke up and immediatly thought "he left at 7:30 am...and he's on his way home :( "...it was depressing......
   Not to stand in the way of the awesome memories of this weekend though! Def. not. This was the best weekend we've ever had together i beleive. So0o much fun.
    Having a long distance relationship, You really learn to grow. I mean REALLY learn to grow. You exhibit trust and devotion each day. It's kinda like credit- You build it up and in the end it pays you back. Everynight when we talk, it's awesome. It's what keeps me going through my gay, long hours of psych notes- His voice. We talk about our day, hockey, our future.  Don't get me wrong, sometimes we're kinda boring, and occasionally not in the best mood, or tired. But still, we talk each night and we keep fueling our fire. And you know what, when we do see eachother, it's none short of amazing. I guess you grow in so many ways from being apart, that when you're physically together, it's so wonderful thats it's overwhelming. Him being away last hockey season, and this one as well, have been the best thing for our relationship. I'm not saying i like him being away.. TRUST ME -i don't AT ALL!, but i highly doubt our relationship would be this rock solid, this serious, if it weren't for the distance. It's tried us and tested us, and we have CERTAINLY overcome it. God is so good.....SOOOOOO good, and i know that we're doing his will, which has gotta be the best feeling in the world. AGAIN, not trying to brag 2night, but seriously i'm head over heels for this kid, and ....idk!!! :):) :) beck-u scared me with that RIP.....hehehe love u hunny...






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well, it's Sunday and rainy. It seems like Sundays are always really nice weather or really crappy weather-maybe it's just me. Anyways, I haven't written in this lil guy in a while. I guess I've been busy, I'm not really sure. So much has happened since then, that I'm realizing I should just make it a point to write each day. FORCE myself, like becky did when she was 7. Haha, except i won't be as open and honest as she was. wink wink.
      Last night i sang with Laura at the guys and girls sectional soccer games. The guys lost....but they played well, and i hope they don't feel like they suck bc they def. don't. And, they're all great kids. The girls won  5-1. That was nice, but it was reallly cold being there from like 4:45 until 9 something. It was crowded too, but it was good to see e'reone. Laura went to John mayer-which wanted so bad to go 2, but not for 40 bucks, so she called me a few times on my cell while i was at the games, and let me hear lil johnny sing..... 
    So today, i'm laying in bed and  i open my eyes, and i'm thinking...it feels like its late, but i set my alarm for 8:33......so i look and its 10:59. UGH- bc i wanted to go to church at 10. so i hop outta bed and try to get ready and stuff and i go to church at 11:45, for the last service. Well it turns out Dan's parents overslept too, so they were there, AND the songs were ones i love, and the sermon was amazing. Good thing i woke up in time to make it there.....it was sad though when they collected offering, bc i had nothing to give, all i had was a check i haven't cashed yet. See- I would have had money- except for someone robbed me last week. After gym, i took my wallet out of my purse and set it aside so that i could reach in and get something else, and i forgot to put it back in. Well it turns out someone found my wallet and decided to take the money from it. So when it was turned in, i went down to the office to pick it up, not nervous AT ALL that anything would be missing, bc i thought to myself, they KNEW it was mine ( my license was on the front, and alll my things that said DANIELLE SILLICK where in plain view) so i'm sauntering back to lunch with the wallet, when i unzip it and find the money missing. i can't explain to you how mad i was. It makes me sick to think that people can just take money like that and not think twice. And yes, that person willlll see me in the hall and look at me and think " i robbed her" . Personally, i think that's really sad. seriously....i don't get how you can do it. Finding a 20 on the floor is different. But seeing who it belongs to and still just yankin the money. people are messed up. seriously messed up. I know its just a wallet, but through this i realized that no matter how nice you are to people, or how hard you make a point to be accepting to all kinds a people, you still get "screwed" (for lack of better word).
    I guess it bugged me most because the night before, i was in church, and i felt like God was telling me that i need to use the optomistic personality he has given me- to shine his love.now i know i've been "doing that" all along,but  I realized that my smile, my personality, and my kindness, are not blessings he has given me, they are "tools" he is letting me borrow for this life on earth, to witness to others- and that is their sole purpose, not just for me to be like....oh i like how i'm nice and always happy. So, after i'm trying to shine his love through my smile and kindness, and trying hard to be nice to everyone at school, i get stolen from. and that was hard to swallow. God was truly testing me, and i know it's only to make me stronger. Instead of letting the words fly outta my mouth, i went in my woods and shot stuff with my bb gun with Ben, we broke branches and stuff too. It was a "healthy" way to release frustration. right ben, lol.
  so anyways, here i am, on Sunday, I've 4gotten about the money thats gone, and i'm moving on to continue my mission of shining his love. The sermon today encouraged me a LOT.  We also sang two of my favorite church songs...
  "so blessed- i can't contain it,
    so much- I gotta give it away
    your love has taught me to live now,
    you are more than enough for me"

and......
   "joy joy joy
       overflowing,
      whenever i put my trust in thee
     when i give it up, and let it go,
     like i child i believe, that you know what's best for me
     oh what Joy that comes washing over me!"

     Well kids, happy freakin friday..haha  just kidding..4 day weekend- so i GOTTA be excited. Pep rally today went awesome- those wretched 6 am practices have come to an end. THANK GOODNESS! But, I guess it was worth it to be the best :) (yea seniors :)

  Anyways, tonight we got a little school action going on..whose knows how that's gonna turn out-but ya only live once right? Got a bonfire and a dance....yeah trust me,  you're gonna wanna be there, because i'm gonna get my groove on. hehe..

   Last night was wednesday night...aka church..and let me just say...wow......i love it so much. Nobody makes me go, I go alone. But trust me, it's THAT good. I go in there with all the frustrations and worries from the week, and while i'm singing i just let them all go. Then i take in some real good stuff from the message, and leave feeling wonderful. It's like i do a swap, and i trade in all the crap for happiness and joy. Neat concept eh?

 joy, joy, joy
overflowing
whenever i put my trust in thee
when i give it up, and let it go
like a child i believe, that you know whats best for me,
oh what joy that comes washing over me
 
I'm givin it up, I'm lettin it go
I' know that you know, more than i'll ever know
I'm trusting you Lord

 

    Danny danny danny...I been missin that lil guy.  u know he would be right in there for that dance boyz ;)  actually, he coulda been kinda unpredictable...woulda causes a laugh somehow. ;)

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Happy Friday churchville and to all the rest  of ya's happy thursday. :) :) :)